Want to know why I'm cranky?
Today I am cranky, I am sad, and mad and feeling like I can’t do anything right. I want to go back to bed and sleep all day. I also want to run away. I want to yell and scream. Or all of the above.
Why you ask? Let me explain.
Yesterday was a decent day: I recorded a podcast which always makes me happy. I took some handmade oils products to a local retail store and smiled all the way home because I’m excited to explore that area of creating income. It started out as a pretty good day.
What set me up for feeling craptacular (it’s a word, I promise) today was a conversation I had last evening. I had reached out to someone for help and resources. She misunderstood what I was asking so my whole part of the conversation felt defensive. I felt like I was wasting her time. (Also she immediately told me she only had about 10 minutes to talk when we started the conversation.) I came away with my gut tied in knots and feeling stupid. What makes it worse is it now feels like I am even more alone even though I know I’m really not.
So this morning I woke up way too early after not sleeping well and the low feelings returned. So I took some “me” time-drank my coffee and stayed in my pajamas as long as possible. I almost cancelled an appointment but decided I needed to move and not wallow in negativity and self-pity. I also decided this person wasn’t going to live in my head rent-free and create those bad feelings. After all-she has probably forgotten about our conversation or at least isn’t as affected by it as I am.
I sat at my desk this morning to edit a podcast and the message was so positive and uplifting: Be Kind to Yourself. This was the response to the question I ask all my guests about going back in time and giving yourself advice. Ok, message received!
I also have a roller bottle of my favorite blend at my desk and rolled that oil everywhere: wrists, neck and under my nose. That particular mix of oils helps me relax and my stomach slowly started to unclench.
As I write this, I am sitting in a local coffee shop-sometimes it’s easier to get things done away from the house. I am feeling better just putting pen to paper-yes I’m doing it the old-fashioned way. Later I will pound it out on my keyboard which is helpful too.
So I thought getting these words out would help me feel better (it does) and maybe some of it resonates with you too.
Have you had a similar situation that made you feel awful? How do you handle it? What outlet(s) do you have when you need to vent and rant? It’s ok to do these things by the way. As long as you are not hurting someone else of course.
I would love to read about your experiences with something like this. Please leave a comment below.
Take care of your beautiful self!